I decided to read what I was feeling and doing last year at this time and I came across this post on my wordpress site. I decided to repost it because I think a lot of people are feeling the same way! I hope this helps all who read it.
I am sitting here at work waiting for my freezer to finish its run before I put the cells in the storage tank when I realized that my life is in the very same state as the cells that I am freezing! It is in a state of “suspended animation”! When the cells are frozen they are unable to grow…they are frozen in time and cannot progress forward. When I am done with this process I have some other cells to thaw out. The solutions that I will be rinsing these cells through will , hopefully, nourish and warm them so that they can move forward and grow! This is what I need to allow myself to do to follow the Hero’s Journey I have been reading about in the MKMMA course. I have not allowed myself to move forward!! I believe that I have everything that I need to do this so what is missing????
I have not “Given myself PERMISSION”!!!!
Mark and Davene spoke about this in the last webinar and I guess that I didn’t really understand at that time! I think that I am finally ready to allow myself to take the Hero’s Journey!!
So what do I do now??? I know that the cells need nutrients and warmth to survive so I will continue with my reading of Og and the Master Key’s (nutrients) and I will be kinder to myself (warmth)!!!
I GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO BE ALL THAT YOU CAN BE WENDY LEWIS!!!
After reading this I will sit and meditate on this and see what I can do for my future self right now!!!
This week of the Franklin Makeover is an amazing Mastermind experience where everyone is focusing on Kindness. The more we focus on it the more we see it all around us and even in us. It is an amazing experience that leaves you feeling warm and happy!! I was very excited about this week because of my experience with last year’s MKMMA group. I really enjoyed it last year and had some wonderful memories just from that week alone. This week started out amazing and my friend was enjoying the wonderful kindness all around her as well. Things changed quite suddenly for me yesterday though and I’m not quite sure why! It started with a snowy and difficult commute in to work with lots of angry commuters yelling obscenities at one another. I tried to ignore this and continued on to work. I opened up my work email and had an urgent email from the head of our Department. It was a long email filled with words like “shortage, lack,downsizing,cutting and minimizing”. Needless to say there was a lot of chatting and a meeting was called immediately. The day just continued on a downward spiral from there with lots of negativeness and anger throughout the department.By the end of my day I was in quite a funk and I wasn’t seeing andy kindness anywhere. My mastermind partner as well as my son were very helpful in bringing me back out of this state! I decided to read some of the kindnesses in the Alliance section of the MKMMA website and found this to be a wonderful resource to bring me back to focusing on kindness. My day ended on a much more positive note. Thanks to all you kind MKMMA’ers!!
Today was a much better day because I tried extra hard to focus on kindness and I tried to bring the hope for joy to all I met. I will continue to visualize a positive happy day first thing every morning to ensure a day full of kindness!
This is the second week of the Franklin Makeover and I decided to share this with a friend and Business partner of mine. I have been telling her about the MKMMA experience and she was extremely interested in what kind of homework I had every week. Our recent conversation coincided with the beginning of the Makeover so I explained it to her and asked if she would like to join me in this part of the course. She was so enthused by this idea that she jumped right in and joined me. We both have “well organized” as the first attribute that we will be watching for so it will be fun to check in with one another daily to see what we observe. This is the first email I received from her …”Wendy I have been thinking a lot about this and after only three days I see some really interesting application of the homework! I think when we begin to see this “well organized ” system and pattern out in the world, we actually want to see it closer and closer in our own life, and then, if we see disorganization, our brain actually wants to re pattern and have it in alignment with the organization we see around us. Therefore we begin to realign our inner and outer worlds so they mirror each other, and in doing so, we create inner organization in our own brains and In our own lives! It is fantastic!
Such a great opportunity to grow from the outside in!
Thanks soooooooo much for sharing the 13 week journey with me. Ben Franklin has given us an amazing gift! I am so excited! “
I’m so excited for her!! She really picked this up quickly and I can’t wait to experience the rest of this 13 week project with her.Now I know how the MKMMA organizers and guides feel when someone is learning and growing from ideas that you have helped them to see. What a rewarding experience!!
Week 14 was a very difficult week for me! I have to say that if it were not for the MKMMA I may have been a much worse situation though. I had some struggles at my workplace that caught me completely off guard and I struggled to maintain my composure on more than one occasion! I kept thinking “it is not what happens to you in life but how you react to it that matters”. I’m not even sure where this came from but the voice in my head was definitely Mark J. I was able to keep my mouth shut and not insert my foot in to it so I am very grateful for this. Had I spoke my feelings at the time I think I would be looking for a new job right now!!
I am also very glad that we are reading scroll four of Og Mandino’s “The Greatest Salesman in the World”right now because I was reminded three times a day that “now I know a great secret of life for I perceive, at last, that all my problems, discouragements, and heartaches are, in truth, great opportunities disguise. I will no longer be fooled by the garments they wear for mine eyes are open. I will look beyond the cloth and I will not be deceived.” I found this line encouraging and have been sitting daily for ideas to solve my problem as well as how I can use this opportunity for growth. Og States that” I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth will I apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I will strain my potential until it cries for mercy.”
So I am off to sit again and work through this opportunity I have been given by the Universe!
The Christmas Holiday was a wonderful mix of family, friends and time to myself! I had a wonderful visit with family this year and everyone was well behaved and we had a very enjoyable visit with one another. I took my son to the airport so that he could spend some with his father over Christmas. This allowed me some time to myself to just relax and think! At this point my internet decided to fail and soon after that my only computer decided to die as well. Needless to say I had plenty of time to sit and think. I quite enjoyed my “quiet time” and really wasn’t looking forward to getting back to reality. I spent some quality time with some close friends as well and we had a few very deep discussions coupled with long walks in the woods. New Years Eve was a little wild and crazy, as it should be, with a neighbourhood party that lasted well into the New Year day. Over all I felt a deep sense of peace and harmony with the Universe and am looking forward to all 2016 has to offer!